Pheeww..
I'm feeling better 2dae.
Badminton was fun! Our last session.
Fun fun fun.
A maths, log.. easy. Yups.
Oh yearh, I was seriously cheered up when I got to know my e maths test mark!
But, don wanna boast abt the marks..
Wait, is this considered boasting?
=D
Finally.. Haiz, after a long week of depression and emotional agony.
Ok ler.. I'll pick myself up. I'm strong. I've promised myself to get at least a b3 for EnGLiSHnext term.
It will happen. It must happen.
Assessment books. Meet your master! Muahahah XD
Oh yerh, fyi, I'm in the mood of serious studying! Wooohoo!
Adios. My frens.
Wednesday, 27 February 2008
Where the children dream away..
Juz came back from doctor. MC again today.
I'm born wif illnesses. But, it's ok. I'll accept it.
Do you know that I can't take a great intake of Vitamin C?
No tablets. No ordinary medicine. Just plain natural diet to help me.
Thats why I'm vertically challenged. But.. I'm willing to carry on.
I swear these won't affect my goals and dreams in life.
Ok. I'm gona talk to my second self now..
Azmi. It's ok. This is just the beginning. You still have a long road to go.
You must be strong and carry on. You know everyone needs you. Ok?
Potential + (-)distraction = performance
Potential = performance
I'll let you pick. Which one? Don't ask me. It's your choice. Its you, you, you.
No one is gona help you. Grow up. Make your own wise decision.
What? You want me to give you my opinion? Hmm. Ok. But, the decision is still yours k?
Distractions
Online games
Yes. Online games. They are one of your main distractions. They decrease your sleeping time and your study time. They have caused you to switch directions. What a waste of time...
I think you should really stop online games. Go delete all your games in your PC. It's not a punishment. It's for your own good. For everything to be the same again as last time.
Do you remember? B4 you got hold of this computer and internet access. How successful and focused you are?
Then you started playing games. You know you shouldn't but, you constantly told yourself that everything is gona be alright. In the middle of your sec 2 life, you can see your grades slowly dropping. You told yourself "Its normal for a secondary student". You are wrong Azmi.
You ignored me Azmi. You ignored your second self. You ignored me, who has been guiding you from the start of your schooling life. I can still rmbr the day when you ditched me. When you abruptly stop listening to me. Thnx to your PC.
Hurh?? Oh.. Don't worry. I'm just lyk you. I'll forgive every single one in my life, every single day. Just take me back to your life again. I'll help you. I'll guide you. I'll go through hard and pain with you. Let me be your closest friend, your guide, lyk we used to be.
So, pls stop online games ok? Pls..
If you're stress, just turn on your PS2. You know, online game is much much worse than Ps2.
In PS2, you can seriously control yourself. You know, I know. So pls, think abt it ok?
Online activities (thru Internet)
Firstly, MSN messenger.. You know what Azmi?
It's seriously useless for you to chat with your friends.
Maybe, you can do this in a weekly basis. Not daily.
How about during your weekends? After you've done your homework and assignments?
Ok?
Next up, hmm.. Blogging. My advice to you is.. don't blog every single day. Yups. Weekends.
Compile the highlights of your week and blog it during your free time, Sat, Sun. K?
Friendster. What's the use of friendster Azmi? Lyk as if ppl gona be friends with you. I mean,
it's not the time yet. It's seriously not the time to make friends. You shud have done that during your younger days. What? Why other ppl can have friendster? Coz they can control and manage their time. You can't. Not yet. So do what's best for you ok? Hope you'll understand.
Skype. Talking? Chatting? Useless. Talking to your frens abt homework and assignments? No.
This will just distract you from completing your work. Trust me. Pls...
Flickr. Hmm.. I know its a very good way to improve your photography skills. Again, my advice for you is to update it during your weekends ok? Wish you luck and success in this.
Haiz.. Azmi. In short, don't switch on your PC during weekdays. During your working time. I mean, what's the use of it? You are not lyk other ppl, who can focus well. Adapt to your abilities. Adapt to the situation. Just don't follow what other ppl do. Everyone's different. Hope you know what I mean Azmi.
My advice
Start again. Start from the beginning. Start, and leave your past. Leave it Azmi. There will be failures in life. You can't change it. It's a fact. It's a route for your race of life. You will and you can do better. It's just a wake up call for you Azmi. A wake up call. Hope you'll realise it. This shows that God still care and love you. He will give obstacles and challenges, for you to prove that you can overcome it, for you to show that your capable in a lot of things. It's for your own good. Your time will come soon.
Turn to you right. Can you see that little streak of light? Can you see it widening? It's your happiness. It's your blessings. Hold on. Be patient Azmi.
Listen to Farhan. He's right. For me, as another living soul unlyk all of you, I respect him. You should thank him Azmi. He has shown you the way. Just walk ahead. It's simple. Ignore every single distractions in life and overcome those obstacles.
Your time will come. That's for sure. Maybe not now. Maybe in the after world. Do what is necessary. Why has God placed your soul into this body and descended you onto this very planet? To test you. To separate His servants into 2 distinct groups. You've told me. You've knew it all along rite? Act now Azmi. It's not too late.
U must start to have a constant study time. Buy assessment books. No.. No..
It's not a punishment. It's just to prove yourself that you've listen and pay attention in class.
Do your homework. That's the first thing that you must do. Then, it's your study time. Assessment books. Study, revise. These will help you. Your teachers won't have the time
to teach you every single thing. They're just basics. You need to understand it fully. Listen to me.
Pls Azmi... Pls.. I'm kneeling down. I'm begging you. Wipe off your tears. You're a man for goodness sake. Stand up.
I can help you Azmi. Lyk what I've done for you for the past 10 years. Lets show them...
Take me.. Please..
I'm born wif illnesses. But, it's ok. I'll accept it.
Do you know that I can't take a great intake of Vitamin C?
No tablets. No ordinary medicine. Just plain natural diet to help me.
Thats why I'm vertically challenged. But.. I'm willing to carry on.
I swear these won't affect my goals and dreams in life.
Ok. I'm gona talk to my second self now..
Azmi. It's ok. This is just the beginning. You still have a long road to go.
You must be strong and carry on. You know everyone needs you. Ok?
Potential + (-)distraction = performance
Potential = performance
I'll let you pick. Which one? Don't ask me. It's your choice. Its you, you, you.
No one is gona help you. Grow up. Make your own wise decision.
What? You want me to give you my opinion? Hmm. Ok. But, the decision is still yours k?
Distractions
Online games
Yes. Online games. They are one of your main distractions. They decrease your sleeping time and your study time. They have caused you to switch directions. What a waste of time...
I think you should really stop online games. Go delete all your games in your PC. It's not a punishment. It's for your own good. For everything to be the same again as last time.
Do you remember? B4 you got hold of this computer and internet access. How successful and focused you are?
Then you started playing games. You know you shouldn't but, you constantly told yourself that everything is gona be alright. In the middle of your sec 2 life, you can see your grades slowly dropping. You told yourself "Its normal for a secondary student". You are wrong Azmi.
You ignored me Azmi. You ignored your second self. You ignored me, who has been guiding you from the start of your schooling life. I can still rmbr the day when you ditched me. When you abruptly stop listening to me. Thnx to your PC.
Hurh?? Oh.. Don't worry. I'm just lyk you. I'll forgive every single one in my life, every single day. Just take me back to your life again. I'll help you. I'll guide you. I'll go through hard and pain with you. Let me be your closest friend, your guide, lyk we used to be.
So, pls stop online games ok? Pls..
If you're stress, just turn on your PS2. You know, online game is much much worse than Ps2.
In PS2, you can seriously control yourself. You know, I know. So pls, think abt it ok?
Online activities (thru Internet)
- Windows live messenger
- Blogging
- Friendster
- Skype
- Flickr
Firstly, MSN messenger.. You know what Azmi?
It's seriously useless for you to chat with your friends.
Maybe, you can do this in a weekly basis. Not daily.
How about during your weekends? After you've done your homework and assignments?
Ok?
Next up, hmm.. Blogging. My advice to you is.. don't blog every single day. Yups. Weekends.
Compile the highlights of your week and blog it during your free time, Sat, Sun. K?
Friendster. What's the use of friendster Azmi? Lyk as if ppl gona be friends with you. I mean,
it's not the time yet. It's seriously not the time to make friends. You shud have done that during your younger days. What? Why other ppl can have friendster? Coz they can control and manage their time. You can't. Not yet. So do what's best for you ok? Hope you'll understand.
Skype. Talking? Chatting? Useless. Talking to your frens abt homework and assignments? No.
This will just distract you from completing your work. Trust me. Pls...
Flickr. Hmm.. I know its a very good way to improve your photography skills. Again, my advice for you is to update it during your weekends ok? Wish you luck and success in this.
Haiz.. Azmi. In short, don't switch on your PC during weekdays. During your working time. I mean, what's the use of it? You are not lyk other ppl, who can focus well. Adapt to your abilities. Adapt to the situation. Just don't follow what other ppl do. Everyone's different. Hope you know what I mean Azmi.
My advice
Start again. Start from the beginning. Start, and leave your past. Leave it Azmi. There will be failures in life. You can't change it. It's a fact. It's a route for your race of life. You will and you can do better. It's just a wake up call for you Azmi. A wake up call. Hope you'll realise it. This shows that God still care and love you. He will give obstacles and challenges, for you to prove that you can overcome it, for you to show that your capable in a lot of things. It's for your own good. Your time will come soon.
Turn to you right. Can you see that little streak of light? Can you see it widening? It's your happiness. It's your blessings. Hold on. Be patient Azmi.
Listen to Farhan. He's right. For me, as another living soul unlyk all of you, I respect him. You should thank him Azmi. He has shown you the way. Just walk ahead. It's simple. Ignore every single distractions in life and overcome those obstacles.
Your time will come. That's for sure. Maybe not now. Maybe in the after world. Do what is necessary. Why has God placed your soul into this body and descended you onto this very planet? To test you. To separate His servants into 2 distinct groups. You've told me. You've knew it all along rite? Act now Azmi. It's not too late.
U must start to have a constant study time. Buy assessment books. No.. No..
It's not a punishment. It's just to prove yourself that you've listen and pay attention in class.
Do your homework. That's the first thing that you must do. Then, it's your study time. Assessment books. Study, revise. These will help you. Your teachers won't have the time
to teach you every single thing. They're just basics. You need to understand it fully. Listen to me.
Pls Azmi... Pls.. I'm kneeling down. I'm begging you. Wipe off your tears. You're a man for goodness sake. Stand up.
I can help you Azmi. Lyk what I've done for you for the past 10 years. Lets show them...
Take me.. Please..
Tuesday, 26 February 2008
I hate myself
Why!? Why must it be now? Why must it be in Sec 3, the most important part of O lvls.
I've failed my first subject. English. The most important subject. U fail at the end of year (overall), u stayback.
CA1 English - 41/100 . Yarh. I know. It's very bad.
Its not abt the marks ok.
It's abt the pressure thats closing in on me.
Broke my finger. Spoiled my small money box. Punched my cabinets.
StrreSSSS!!!!!!!
I guys will just think "arh, azmi, emo, coz he fail. Nothing much larh. Everyone oso got fail b4."
Guys, its not abt that. It's abt.. haiz..
I'm always thinking abt my future abt my family and relatives' future.
I'm their last matchstick. I'm their last, to light a huge flame of paradise. To show and lead the right way through.
Came back, as usual. Quarreled wif my parents. They just seem to not understand my feelings. They just won't know. I'm thinking abt their future. Abt my relatives future. My cousins. Every single one. Their tone of voice is seriously unsuitable. I've told my mom nicely why I'm very stress and lose control easily. Haiz, my dad went off to my grandpa's and auntie's house. I pity him too. Thinking abt my situation. Our future. Everything. U guys won't know. Nvm.
DO u noe how freaking pressurized am I??????????????
I nda secure a good and stable job. For everyone. ok? for everyone.
U guys may think that you are poorer than me, blablabla. No.
U guys donnoe and will never ever know. I've promised not to leak out my private family problems. You guys are so lucky. So lucky to have a wonderful starting life. So lucky to have siblings and cousins which will support you and everyone else. Haiz.
Maybe I'll fully explain my story. Juz pls think that I'm not juz an ordinary guy ok? I'm not those type of ppl hu emo here and there juz for the sake of releasing their emotions / stress coz of their relationships with parents or gf/bf..
I JUst CANT Freaking tell you why ok!? Not now.
I must be strong, and carry on..
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven
I've failed my first subject. English. The most important subject. U fail at the end of year (overall), u stayback.
CA1 English - 41/100 . Yarh. I know. It's very bad.
Its not abt the marks ok.
It's abt the pressure thats closing in on me.
Broke my finger. Spoiled my small money box. Punched my cabinets.
StrreSSSS!!!!!!!
I guys will just think "arh, azmi, emo, coz he fail. Nothing much larh. Everyone oso got fail b4."
Guys, its not abt that. It's abt.. haiz..
I'm always thinking abt my future abt my family and relatives' future.
I'm their last matchstick. I'm their last, to light a huge flame of paradise. To show and lead the right way through.
Came back, as usual. Quarreled wif my parents. They just seem to not understand my feelings. They just won't know. I'm thinking abt their future. Abt my relatives future. My cousins. Every single one. Their tone of voice is seriously unsuitable. I've told my mom nicely why I'm very stress and lose control easily. Haiz, my dad went off to my grandpa's and auntie's house. I pity him too. Thinking abt my situation. Our future. Everything. U guys won't know. Nvm.
DO u noe how freaking pressurized am I??????????????
I nda secure a good and stable job. For everyone. ok? for everyone.
U guys may think that you are poorer than me, blablabla. No.
U guys donnoe and will never ever know. I've promised not to leak out my private family problems. You guys are so lucky. So lucky to have a wonderful starting life. So lucky to have siblings and cousins which will support you and everyone else. Haiz.
Maybe I'll fully explain my story. Juz pls think that I'm not juz an ordinary guy ok? I'm not those type of ppl hu emo here and there juz for the sake of releasing their emotions / stress coz of their relationships with parents or gf/bf..
I JUst CANT Freaking tell you why ok!? Not now.
I must be strong, and carry on..
Would you hold my hand
If I saw you in heaven
Would you help me stand
If I saw you in heaven
I'll find my way, through night and day
Beyond the door
There's peace I'm sure.
And I know there'll be no more...
Tears in heaven
Monday, 25 February 2008
Wahliuo.. Tiring day.
Basically, in the morn, we needa go thru sum personal protection which is quite tiring.
Then,,,, Got back my Geog CA! =(
Suspense!
And when I received back my paper, I tio whack at the back 3 times by 2 ppl.
[self-explanatory?]
oh btw, totally PAINFULL ARH!!
u die XD
After school, went thru another workshop.
Its basically abt resilience, not giving up, no emo-emo, how to overcome ur probs,
how to be a successful individual, etc.
Very, very useful. Yups.
Ok, gtg finish my cup noodle! XD
Tonight, I nda spam my maths HW!! approx 3hrs.
=(
Oh yearh, I heard a good news, which is purely confidential. It can help my family's future. Its sort of shocking but, yearh. Nvm. I shouldn't go into it... ;(
Basically, in the morn, we needa go thru sum personal protection which is quite tiring.
Then,,,, Got back my Geog CA! =(
Suspense!
And when I received back my paper, I tio whack at the back 3 times by 2 ppl.
[self-explanatory?]
oh btw, totally PAINFULL ARH!!
u die XD
After school, went thru another workshop.
Its basically abt resilience, not giving up, no emo-emo, how to overcome ur probs,
how to be a successful individual, etc.
Very, very useful. Yups.
Ok, gtg finish my cup noodle! XD
Tonight, I nda spam my maths HW!! approx 3hrs.
=(
Oh yearh, I heard a good news, which is purely confidential. It can help my family's future. Its sort of shocking but, yearh. Nvm. I shouldn't go into it... ;(
Sunday, 24 February 2008
Saturday, 23 February 2008
Went out to school and reached at 6.55am. 7++ board the bus to Ngee An Poly for the Aerospace workshop. Damien & I were the only Sec 3s, among the other 13 Sec4s. We are basically the photographers for the VS "spectrum" magazine. So needa snap pics for this event.
Speeches were delivered. The speakers gave me a better idea of the Aerospace Industry in Singapore and around the world.
Do u know that the average salary of an average employee in the Aerospace Industry is 20k?
0.0"
Took a tour around the Aerospace exhibition. Cools.
Board a bus which led us to the prestigious Singapore Airshow 2008, Asia's largest aerospace event. fighter planes will "catwalk" in the sky.
In the end we needa walk for 3-4km to the place coz the bus couldn't enter the area.
O.o Donnoe why
We are late. The jet planes just started when we alighted the bus. Took out my the DSLR, snap, snap. Shitty pics coz its a very cloudy day.
ITS FREAKING AWE-SOME. Nice aerobatic maneuvers by "Black Knights". A squad of extremely professional war fighter planes. F-16 fighter planes from the Republic of Singapore Air Force, as well as performance from the Royal Australian Air Force Roulettes.
The coolest part of the show for me is when a F-16 plane stalled in the air for a few seconds.
It was really cool.
Oh yearh, they also formed a heart shape with an arrow in it by releasing sum kind of smoke in their trail.
The A380 aka airbus, flew really really low in front of us. Cool.
Went home by free shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Interchange. Went to BK with damien. Then strolled around Pasir Ris Fishing pond.
Reached home at around 4.30pm.
Hmm.. learned a lot of valuable life skillz thru'out this whole day. BB.
Speeches were delivered. The speakers gave me a better idea of the Aerospace Industry in Singapore and around the world.
Do u know that the average salary of an average employee in the Aerospace Industry is 20k?
0.0"
Took a tour around the Aerospace exhibition. Cools.
Board a bus which led us to the prestigious Singapore Airshow 2008, Asia's largest aerospace event. fighter planes will "catwalk" in the sky.
In the end we needa walk for 3-4km to the place coz the bus couldn't enter the area.
O.o Donnoe why
We are late. The jet planes just started when we alighted the bus. Took out my the DSLR, snap, snap. Shitty pics coz its a very cloudy day.
ITS FREAKING AWE-SOME. Nice aerobatic maneuvers by "Black Knights". A squad of extremely professional war fighter planes. F-16 fighter planes from the Republic of Singapore Air Force, as well as performance from the Royal Australian Air Force Roulettes.
The coolest part of the show for me is when a F-16 plane stalled in the air for a few seconds.
It was really cool.
Oh yearh, they also formed a heart shape with an arrow in it by releasing sum kind of smoke in their trail.
The A380 aka airbus, flew really really low in front of us. Cool.
Went home by free shuttle bus to Pasir Ris Interchange. Went to BK with damien. Then strolled around Pasir Ris Fishing pond.
Reached home at around 4.30pm.
Hmm.. learned a lot of valuable life skillz thru'out this whole day. BB.
Friday, 22 February 2008
Special ways...
OMG. Yesterday and today rocked my life. XD
Seriously arh.
But very very very tiring. I'll explain later =p
Thursday
Bio and Physics paper. I think a2/b3 for both. Very difficult and the time given
is quite short. CA1 is always my poorest thru'out the year. My parents comforted me
by saying that its alright and what I gotta do is just try harder next time and learn your mistakes
for this term. So, CA1s aside k..
After that, SLI!!!!!! SLI was fun. Flag bearing was ok. I scared I'll screw up but i didnt! XD
Ended around 8pm. THEN, the real fun begins...
Taufik and I were targeted as victims of the koi pond's water. Ziyad mastermind. So scary.
Around 20 ppl chasing you. Changed quickly into PE attire and ran. Hid behind the joga bonito
court. But, they spotted us.
"Eh! They're there! Googgogoo!"
Taufik and I ran into the field (the joga bonito court is linked to the field). Ran out. Pheww.
Then
we got seperated.
They caught Taufik first. Haha XD. Then I sumhow quitely "release" Taufik. Then he ran wif me.
Kena chase again. He got caught again -.-
I hid behind those dark places behind the school. Changed my mind as it was freaky. Then, I was chased by 8ppl. Sprinted. Till... "Oh crap. Dead end."
They "ushered" me to the pond. Along the way, I escaped their weak grips. Ran, climbed, tip-toe. I was catching my breath at the basketball court, when our of freaking nowhere, 12-15 ppl surrounded me. WTF. Didnt see that comin. I was pinned down. Taupok-ed. Karate-ed. Judo-ed. Silat-ed. Till I drop to the ground. All of them hold my limbs and lifted me up. Luckily their pace of walking was slow. I regained my energy.
*struggle, kick, punch,* I got away again. Wooo... Basically, I'm always telling lies. Haha. XD
"Ouch! My hand pain!" "ARgh!!!!!!!!!" "Oi pain larh!"
They work. =p
2mins, pinned down again -.-
They carried me to the same route again. At the Flexi room. I used every ounce of energy left. I "rugby-ed" ppl. Around 10ppl were holding me. My legs, hands, neck, arms, stomach. Sum ppl stopping me from in front. I literally dragged them. Haafiz said " Waliu! Waliu! Strong sia this small kid!". Thnx Haafiz, coz u give me the motivation and adrenaline to run away again. XD
Pinned down. Carried me over the bridge of the pond with variety of BIG fish. They let me pick which pond. So lucky, so i chose the clean, spacious, koi pond. Haha. Sum of them did "dance & rituals" and stuffs. Haha!
When reaching the pond. I escaped and ran for 50m thru the canteen.
Was dragged down by Ziyad. He pulled my shirt! I scared tear so I gave in =p.
I gave UP. Yes. I rarely give up in anything. Haiz.. No choice.
They swing me back and forth to gain momentum.
"1 , 2 , 3 !.... Splusshhhh!"
My head went into the water first. I "swam" up. Everyone laughed and clap. LOL
Then, random ppl was chased around. Haha!
Ppl who got dunked lyk me: Taufik, Endy, Danial
It was seriously fun & tiring. Went to Ziyad's house after that.
Played PS2. I own at Fifa. GTA San Andreas next (no explanation required).
Entered one of the rooms. Lie down. Blankets covering our shivering body.
Watched "Shutter". Watched it 5 times. No big deal, so i slept. Hahaha.
Friday
Woke up at 5am lyk dat. Only 2.5 hours of sleep. Bathed. Prayed. Went out to RGS for its investiture.
Slept in Ziyad mom's car.
RGS is huge.
We sort of stoned. Haha. Lack of sleep.
Reception & Refreshments.
While eating, heard sum1 calling my name. Scanned the surrounding. It's Huda. Haha. With her frens. She came for the invest too. Coincidental i suppose.
Next up was the tour.
ANDDDDD... my black shoes (I borrow from Ziyad), started to tear and break apart. The heels broke OFF. I was lyk "Oh Crap?!" So Malu. Tried to walk normally. Hope ppl didn't see my shoes. Then took a cab to Ziyad's house. Arrived at 12.30 lyk dat.
Rest. Went for Friday's prayer. Head back to school.
Went to Science Centre. Quite fun.
Supported the C Div soccer boiz when reach back to school.
Went to Ziyad's place. Took back my stuffs. Ziyad's mom is so nice! Send me home.
Then, b4 I got out of car, I kissed the hand of Ziyad mom's hand (usual muslim routine, salam) U muz salam sum1 older than you b4 u leave. THEN, I salam-ed ZIYAD. LOL. Hahahahaha.
Hope u guys get the joke. VERY funny. Hahhahahahahahahah. =p
Ok ok ok ok ok... Bb guys!!
Seriously arh.
But very very very tiring. I'll explain later =p
Thursday
Bio and Physics paper. I think a2/b3 for both. Very difficult and the time given
is quite short. CA1 is always my poorest thru'out the year. My parents comforted me
by saying that its alright and what I gotta do is just try harder next time and learn your mistakes
for this term. So, CA1s aside k..
After that, SLI!!!!!! SLI was fun. Flag bearing was ok. I scared I'll screw up but i didnt! XD
Ended around 8pm. THEN, the real fun begins...
Taufik and I were targeted as victims of the koi pond's water. Ziyad mastermind. So scary.
Around 20 ppl chasing you. Changed quickly into PE attire and ran. Hid behind the joga bonito
court. But, they spotted us.
"Eh! They're there! Googgogoo!"
Taufik and I ran into the field (the joga bonito court is linked to the field). Ran out. Pheww.
Then
we got seperated.
They caught Taufik first. Haha XD. Then I sumhow quitely "release" Taufik. Then he ran wif me.
Kena chase again. He got caught again -.-
I hid behind those dark places behind the school. Changed my mind as it was freaky. Then, I was chased by 8ppl. Sprinted. Till... "Oh crap. Dead end."
They "ushered" me to the pond. Along the way, I escaped their weak grips. Ran, climbed, tip-toe. I was catching my breath at the basketball court, when our of freaking nowhere, 12-15 ppl surrounded me. WTF. Didnt see that comin. I was pinned down. Taupok-ed. Karate-ed. Judo-ed. Silat-ed. Till I drop to the ground. All of them hold my limbs and lifted me up. Luckily their pace of walking was slow. I regained my energy.
*struggle, kick, punch,* I got away again. Wooo... Basically, I'm always telling lies. Haha. XD
"Ouch! My hand pain!" "ARgh!!!!!!!!!" "Oi pain larh!"
They work. =p
2mins, pinned down again -.-
They carried me to the same route again. At the Flexi room. I used every ounce of energy left. I "rugby-ed" ppl. Around 10ppl were holding me. My legs, hands, neck, arms, stomach. Sum ppl stopping me from in front. I literally dragged them. Haafiz said " Waliu! Waliu! Strong sia this small kid!". Thnx Haafiz, coz u give me the motivation and adrenaline to run away again. XD
Pinned down. Carried me over the bridge of the pond with variety of BIG fish. They let me pick which pond. So lucky, so i chose the clean, spacious, koi pond. Haha. Sum of them did "dance & rituals" and stuffs. Haha!
When reaching the pond. I escaped and ran for 50m thru the canteen.
Was dragged down by Ziyad. He pulled my shirt! I scared tear so I gave in =p.
I gave UP. Yes. I rarely give up in anything. Haiz.. No choice.
They swing me back and forth to gain momentum.
"1 , 2 , 3 !.... Splusshhhh!"
My head went into the water first. I "swam" up. Everyone laughed and clap. LOL
Then, random ppl was chased around. Haha!
Ppl who got dunked lyk me: Taufik, Endy, Danial
It was seriously fun & tiring. Went to Ziyad's house after that.
Played PS2. I own at Fifa. GTA San Andreas next (no explanation required).
Entered one of the rooms. Lie down. Blankets covering our shivering body.
Watched "Shutter". Watched it 5 times. No big deal, so i slept. Hahaha.
Friday
Woke up at 5am lyk dat. Only 2.5 hours of sleep. Bathed. Prayed. Went out to RGS for its investiture.
Slept in Ziyad mom's car.
RGS is huge.
We sort of stoned. Haha. Lack of sleep.
Reception & Refreshments.
While eating, heard sum1 calling my name. Scanned the surrounding. It's Huda. Haha. With her frens. She came for the invest too. Coincidental i suppose.
Next up was the tour.
ANDDDDD... my black shoes (I borrow from Ziyad), started to tear and break apart. The heels broke OFF. I was lyk "Oh Crap?!" So Malu. Tried to walk normally. Hope ppl didn't see my shoes. Then took a cab to Ziyad's house. Arrived at 12.30 lyk dat.
Rest. Went for Friday's prayer. Head back to school.
Went to Science Centre. Quite fun.
Supported the C Div soccer boiz when reach back to school.
Went to Ziyad's place. Took back my stuffs. Ziyad's mom is so nice! Send me home.
Then, b4 I got out of car, I kissed the hand of Ziyad mom's hand (usual muslim routine, salam) U muz salam sum1 older than you b4 u leave. THEN, I salam-ed ZIYAD. LOL. Hahahahaha.
Hope u guys get the joke. VERY funny. Hahhahahahahahahah. =p
Ok ok ok ok ok... Bb guys!!
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
(TT )
:) *smile always azmi*
Announcing's fun, donnoe y. Got back a few of my test, all A1 :) But, Im still really really worried for my English. I think Im gona get 50-60. Confirm. Surprised? No. Coz Im really bad with my language. MT CA was alright, i think im gona get a2/1. yeahh. Thats abt it.
Phew, and i've gotten rid of sum of my to-do things. Yey! Hahaha. Hmm... Not much diff actually, coz there's still add-ons. Haiz XD .
2mrw - Physics, Bio (confident a1 although NVR study 4 this sub b4 :p). SLI ( Flag bearer ). Badminton grading session (ayiah. Chiken McNugget upsize one with BBQ sauce larh). Sleepover at Ziyads house(Im gona bring my ps2 games there. GTA San Andreas - super fun, exciting, violent, sick game, which I noe EVERY SINGLE feature, cheat codes and hideouts of the place)
Fri - RGS Invest. Science Centre 3-4pm.
Next week stuffs? I better not talk abt it. =S
Good friends we have, oh, good friends weve lost
Along the way.
In this great future, you cant forget your past;
So dry your tears, I seh.
I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in trenchtown.
And then georgie would make the fire lights,
As it was logwood burnin through the nights.
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge,
Of which Ill share with you;
My feet is my only carriage,
So Ive got to push on through.
Announcing's fun, donnoe y. Got back a few of my test, all A1 :) But, Im still really really worried for my English. I think Im gona get 50-60. Confirm. Surprised? No. Coz Im really bad with my language. MT CA was alright, i think im gona get a2/1. yeahh. Thats abt it.
Phew, and i've gotten rid of sum of my to-do things. Yey! Hahaha. Hmm... Not much diff actually, coz there's still add-ons. Haiz XD .
2mrw - Physics, Bio (confident a1 although NVR study 4 this sub b4 :p). SLI ( Flag bearer ). Badminton grading session (ayiah. Chiken McNugget upsize one with BBQ sauce larh). Sleepover at Ziyads house(Im gona bring my ps2 games there. GTA San Andreas - super fun, exciting, violent, sick game, which I noe EVERY SINGLE feature, cheat codes and hideouts of the place)
Fri - RGS Invest. Science Centre 3-4pm.
Next week stuffs? I better not talk abt it. =S
Good friends we have, oh, good friends weve lost
Along the way.
In this great future, you cant forget your past;
So dry your tears, I seh.
I remember when we used to sit
In the government yard in trenchtown.
And then georgie would make the fire lights,
As it was logwood burnin through the nights.
Then we would cook cornmeal porridge,
Of which Ill share with you;
My feet is my only carriage,
So Ive got to push on through.
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
No way Azmi..
I'm really feeling bad and depressed right now. I'm extremely worried about my CA English marks. I'm very worried about my grandfather. I'm very worried about my father's "non-stop working" condition to shelter me and most importantly, my mom.
After I send her to dialysis, I went to my auntie's house to see my grandfather's condition. He's recovering, a good sign. 10 mins later, I fell asleep. I'm super tired and very ill. Need sum rest.
Around 4pm, I woke up. I stoned for a while, then I panicked. My mom. I'm suppose to pick her up. My dad is working out sum stuffs and I NEED to pick her up. I called her, she was very disappointed. She didn't show it but I knew she was disappointed seeing me as an irresponsible boy. A boy who simply couldn't take care about other ppl and even himself.
My mom can't walk properly as she just went for a major operation of her knee cap and leg bones. So she need to use clutches. Dialysis - both her kidneys are not functioning anymore.
AND, basically, when I walked home, I saw her alighting a cab, limping. I ran towards her, kiss her hand, and said "Im sorry Ma. I..." She interrupted my sentence and juz smiled kindly at me. "I understand. Nvm. Im ok." That's a damn big thing for me. Argh, nvm, I'm just writing to an Artificial Intelligence which basically amplifies my words. No big deal. To be honest wif you guys, I'm crying now. You will rarely see me cry. If I cry, its either bcoz of the mistakes that I've done or bcoz of sumone in an unfortunate or sad situation.
For this case, I'm crying bcoz of both reasons. And, I don't need "cheer-up" thingys. I hate those things. I prefer to be alone, far away from humans, just alone. You guys wanna know sumting? Previously, my ambition is to be a successful farmer [not in S'pore -.-, Perth maybe] Those kind of countrysides... I wanna be close with nature and have very few ppl around me. Now that's what I call "inner peace".
Ok, ok ok. Coming back to the real world. I have MT exam 2mrw. Bio & Physics Exams on Thurs. Flag bearing for Senior Leader's Investiture on Thurs. RGS Invest on Fri. AeroSpace on Sat. Put up designs for my class's notice board. AEP competition. Spectrum Magazine, I'm basically the editor and writer. Talk with Mr Lee about my transfer to IT-Club. And there are loads more.
Turn your lights down low
And pull your window curtains;
Oh, let your light come shining in
Into my old life again...
After I send her to dialysis, I went to my auntie's house to see my grandfather's condition. He's recovering, a good sign. 10 mins later, I fell asleep. I'm super tired and very ill. Need sum rest.
Around 4pm, I woke up. I stoned for a while, then I panicked. My mom. I'm suppose to pick her up. My dad is working out sum stuffs and I NEED to pick her up. I called her, she was very disappointed. She didn't show it but I knew she was disappointed seeing me as an irresponsible boy. A boy who simply couldn't take care about other ppl and even himself.
My mom can't walk properly as she just went for a major operation of her knee cap and leg bones. So she need to use clutches. Dialysis - both her kidneys are not functioning anymore.
AND, basically, when I walked home, I saw her alighting a cab, limping. I ran towards her, kiss her hand, and said "Im sorry Ma. I..." She interrupted my sentence and juz smiled kindly at me. "I understand. Nvm. Im ok." That's a damn big thing for me. Argh, nvm, I'm just writing to an Artificial Intelligence which basically amplifies my words. No big deal. To be honest wif you guys, I'm crying now. You will rarely see me cry. If I cry, its either bcoz of the mistakes that I've done or bcoz of sumone in an unfortunate or sad situation.
For this case, I'm crying bcoz of both reasons. And, I don't need "cheer-up" thingys. I hate those things. I prefer to be alone, far away from humans, just alone. You guys wanna know sumting? Previously, my ambition is to be a successful farmer [not in S'pore -.-, Perth maybe] Those kind of countrysides... I wanna be close with nature and have very few ppl around me. Now that's what I call "inner peace".
Ok, ok ok. Coming back to the real world. I have MT exam 2mrw. Bio & Physics Exams on Thurs. Flag bearing for Senior Leader's Investiture on Thurs. RGS Invest on Fri. AeroSpace on Sat. Put up designs for my class's notice board. AEP competition. Spectrum Magazine, I'm basically the editor and writer. Talk with Mr Lee about my transfer to IT-Club. And there are loads more.
Turn your lights down low
And pull your window curtains;
Oh, let your light come shining in
Into my old life again...
Testing new skin
Test mike 1,2,3.. Yeah! It's working.. Ok, 2dae I'm sick. Can't go school. Ok, gtg send my mom to her dialysis centre.
Sunday, 17 February 2008
Thanks..
I'm feeling worse 2dea. BUT, I think I'm feeling better. Wtf? I'm contradicting myself. OK nvm. I juz wanna say thanks to Bob Marley. Thanks for all the wonderful songs and lyrics. I was searching for a few songs that I heard of during my kiddy days, and finally, I've found it. So nostalgic. These are the few songs :
Turn your lights down low, No Women No Cry, Smile Jamaica.
Means a lot to me. My cousins introduced me to these songs when I was 6 years old. I can still remember the moment when they switch on a blue CD player, and these melodious notes flowed out of the speakers. I couldn't sleep and it was 3 am in the morning. But, I slept soon after these songs were played. You guys wonnoe how much it means to me.
And I'll be doing my assignments at Afiq's house today. So..... goodbye.
Turn your lights down low, No Women No Cry, Smile Jamaica.
Means a lot to me. My cousins introduced me to these songs when I was 6 years old. I can still remember the moment when they switch on a blue CD player, and these melodious notes flowed out of the speakers. I couldn't sleep and it was 3 am in the morning. But, I slept soon after these songs were played. You guys wonnoe how much it means to me.
And I'll be doing my assignments at Afiq's house today. So..... goodbye.
Saturday, 16 February 2008
Haiz...
"THIS IS THE AFTERMATH
OF AFTERNOONS IN THE CLOVER FIELDS
WHERE WE ONCE MADE LOVE
THEN WANDERED HOME TOGETHER
WHERE THE TREES ARCHED ABOVE
WHERE WE MADE OUR OWN WEATHER
WHEN BRANCHES WERE THE SKY
NOW THEY ARE GONE FOR GOOD
AND YOU, FOR ILL, AND I
AM ONLY A PASSER-BY
WE AND THE TREES AND THE WAY
BACK FROM THE FIELDS OF PLAY
LASTED AS LONG AS WE COULD
NO MORE WALKS IN THE WOOD"
- quoted frm No More Walks in the Woods by The Eagles
I juz feel shitty. I'm nt gona tell y. I've juz thought of sumthing. And I feel that these phrases portray my feelings to you guys. If you donnoe what I'm saying abt.. too bad.. coz I donnoe either. Haiz. There I go again. Spilling out nonsense. I have found the right way. But I juz cant seem to walk towards that path. Thanks. Yes, thanks. Thanks to whoever, wadeva, anyone, anything. Blablablabla.. CA's coming up. Studying. Assignments, due shortly. And the only thing that can relief my stress is.. Juz listening to songs alone. With nothing in my mind. No one around me. Juz Me. Ok? ok.
OF AFTERNOONS IN THE CLOVER FIELDS
WHERE WE ONCE MADE LOVE
THEN WANDERED HOME TOGETHER
WHERE THE TREES ARCHED ABOVE
WHERE WE MADE OUR OWN WEATHER
WHEN BRANCHES WERE THE SKY
NOW THEY ARE GONE FOR GOOD
AND YOU, FOR ILL, AND I
AM ONLY A PASSER-BY
WE AND THE TREES AND THE WAY
BACK FROM THE FIELDS OF PLAY
LASTED AS LONG AS WE COULD
NO MORE WALKS IN THE WOOD"
- quoted frm No More Walks in the Woods by The Eagles
I juz feel shitty. I'm nt gona tell y. I've juz thought of sumthing. And I feel that these phrases portray my feelings to you guys. If you donnoe what I'm saying abt.. too bad.. coz I donnoe either. Haiz. There I go again. Spilling out nonsense. I have found the right way. But I juz cant seem to walk towards that path. Thanks. Yes, thanks. Thanks to whoever, wadeva, anyone, anything. Blablablabla.. CA's coming up. Studying. Assignments, due shortly. And the only thing that can relief my stress is.. Juz listening to songs alone. With nothing in my mind. No one around me. Juz Me. Ok? ok.
Wednesday, 13 February 2008
Favourite!
Today is the most productive day i've ever had so far.. for the year 2008. Seriously arh...
First up, was the usual prefect duty. XD
Ad Maths was cool. Bio - Experimenting fats and sugars. Recess - Mee Soto. EM - Graph test =). MT - Workbook.
After school, went to solat berjemaah with my usual praying colleague.. Everyone dowan be Imam. Haha. Push here and there. Lastly, Hafidzhin "volunteered". Haha. Went down to eat Mee Soto again, before rushing off to the auditorium for SLI next Thursday. Flag Bearers - FB. Yeah...
Hafidzhin wanted me to cut my hair at this barber shop. We went first. And yes.. It's seriously cool. The barber is seriously friendly and pro. Freaking fast. Cut, wash, cut, style. Alermakk. 10 bucks. Ok larh.
Waited for Ziyad, Ernest and Yi qi. They wanted to cut their hair too. Ziyad, Fidz, me, then went off to a 3rd floor 'ulu' staircase, to pray.
8pm - KFC. I was broke. $3 left. Spent it on a Shrooms burger meal. Study. Study. Study. Today was very very productive. 9.10pm -waved to Ziyad as he board 31. The 4 of us walked for approximately 2km, to the 55 bustop. Sprinted as we saw the 55 bus. Haha. I've improved on my speed! Coolee.
Hmmm.. nothing much to sae. Learnt a lot of useful and meaningful stuffs from all of them. Kk... Bb. Want to sleep d.
In the meantime, enjoy these pics...
First up, was the usual prefect duty. XD
Ad Maths was cool. Bio - Experimenting fats and sugars. Recess - Mee Soto. EM - Graph test =). MT - Workbook.
After school, went to solat berjemaah with my usual praying colleague.. Everyone dowan be Imam. Haha. Push here and there. Lastly, Hafidzhin "volunteered". Haha. Went down to eat Mee Soto again, before rushing off to the auditorium for SLI next Thursday. Flag Bearers - FB. Yeah...
Hafidzhin wanted me to cut my hair at this barber shop. We went first. And yes.. It's seriously cool. The barber is seriously friendly and pro. Freaking fast. Cut, wash, cut, style. Alermakk. 10 bucks. Ok larh.
Waited for Ziyad, Ernest and Yi qi. They wanted to cut their hair too. Ziyad, Fidz, me, then went off to a 3rd floor 'ulu' staircase, to pray.
8pm - KFC. I was broke. $3 left. Spent it on a Shrooms burger meal. Study. Study. Study. Today was very very productive. 9.10pm -waved to Ziyad as he board 31. The 4 of us walked for approximately 2km, to the 55 bustop. Sprinted as we saw the 55 bus. Haha. I've improved on my speed! Coolee.
Hmmm.. nothing much to sae. Learnt a lot of useful and meaningful stuffs from all of them. Kk... Bb. Want to sleep d.
In the meantime, enjoy these pics...
Tuesday, 12 February 2008
Nothing can paint my true emotions..
Aloha peeps. School was fun 2dae.. Especially wif 2 vendors of IT stuffs that came 2dae. Cool! I bought a pair of headphones for 5 bucks. And.. the bez thing is, there's a mike! Haha. 5 bucks! Worth it rite? Yeah. Can discuss bout projects and... communicate wif Damien during halo.
"Azmi to Damien, over. 2 red spartans coming to blue base. Return at once, over."
Haha.
And.. I suddenly realize sumting.. Sumting that opened the doors of my heart and twitched my mind.. Made me think thru it over and over again... more to reminding myself, over and over again. And yes, it has guided me into a better teenage boy.
If you lie down on the green, doughy grass, gazing at the sky, trees circling you, swaying left and right, leaves constantly falling.. treasure those moments, as if it will be your last. Coz it will be your last. No happy moments can be repeated, bcoz they're so unique and incomparable. If its in the day, admire the calming view of the crispy, rolling clouds. If its night time, adore the blinking stars. Admire every single thing you're suppose to do, you're tasked to do. Then every second of your life will be an hour of happiness.
This is juz an advice from me. You may ignore me or heed my words. I'm not forcing you.
Tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all..
"Azmi to Damien, over. 2 red spartans coming to blue base. Return at once, over."
Haha.
And.. I suddenly realize sumting.. Sumting that opened the doors of my heart and twitched my mind.. Made me think thru it over and over again... more to reminding myself, over and over again. And yes, it has guided me into a better teenage boy.
If you lie down on the green, doughy grass, gazing at the sky, trees circling you, swaying left and right, leaves constantly falling.. treasure those moments, as if it will be your last. Coz it will be your last. No happy moments can be repeated, bcoz they're so unique and incomparable. If its in the day, admire the calming view of the crispy, rolling clouds. If its night time, adore the blinking stars. Admire every single thing you're suppose to do, you're tasked to do. Then every second of your life will be an hour of happiness.
This is juz an advice from me. You may ignore me or heed my words. I'm not forcing you.
Tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window and I can't see at all..
Monday, 11 February 2008
Monday Blues..
Wooo! English CA over! Can finally R.I.P.. Quite ok arh the paper, hope i can get >18 / 25. Pls, pls, pls, pls...
Hrm, juz stayed back fr a while in school, talk to my frens, bla,bla,bla.. Oh yearh, I bought a funky green book strap! So greeny. Can add on to my book straps collection. Went to LJS. Decided not to add theaddictive Chocolate Cream dessert. 2 Bucks saved. Baiek azmi! Went to mug [ mugging is a crime ] study at Marine Parade Library wif The Ming and MR. Pendy. Then, during our way home, said goodbye to Pendy. I and DEming went to the bustop in front of tao nan school. Waited for 55. And guess wad, 55 juz pass lyk "snap" ignoring us. U noe y? Coz it doesnt stop there.
D
I
A
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OMG? o.0 GTdbz? InstructorD? for the past 3 years in VS, u donnoe that 55 doesnt stop there? Haiz. Im so ashamed of u 2. Disappoint me. So we walked to the next bustop and board a 55. Walao. Waste of time eh =[
Aniwaes, congratz Huda fr completing ur puasa sunat. Good gerl! (:
Oh yearh, I nda go for RGS investiture. =o Me, Ziyad, Hafidzin, Dzafir =].
& I'm the odd one out. Wana noe y? Coz they know a lot ofgfs gals who are their "frens" there. HRgm. I wonder y... This shows that I'm clean! Hahaha!
I think. =d
Hrm, juz stayed back fr a while in school, talk to my frens, bla,bla,bla.. Oh yearh, I bought a funky green book strap! So greeny. Can add on to my book straps collection. Went to LJS. Decided not to add the
D
I
A
O
OMG? o.0 GTdbz? InstructorD? for the past 3 years in VS, u donnoe that 55 doesnt stop there? Haiz. Im so ashamed of u 2. Disappoint me. So we walked to the next bustop and board a 55. Walao. Waste of time eh =[
Aniwaes, congratz Huda fr completing ur puasa sunat. Good gerl! (:
Oh yearh, I nda go for RGS investiture. =o Me, Ziyad, Hafidzin, Dzafir =].
& I'm the odd one out. Wana noe y? Coz they know a lot of
I think. =d
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