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9th May 2019

Alhamdulillah.

I wish to share a little something.

Yesterday was physically challenging. During the 2.4km IPPT station, I was silently worried about my first ever Division match at night. I had to perform and show that I am capable, despite fasting and doing my IPPT four hours before the match.

While running my 2.4km, I made an uncharacteristic prayer, somewhat along the lines of "Bless me with the strength to do well tonight. I place my trust in You. If I'm not permitted to and if it displeases You, then it is not my rizq and I'll accept it."

It is uncharacteristic of me as I usually tend to make prayers that only plead for blessings, without really having the humility to truly consider pleasing Him in my do'a. Tawakkul. If it pleases the Giver of Peace, InsyaaAllah we will have nothing to lose.

Later that night, I played one of my best games as the right midfielder. It is such a joy to play alongside a great team. I scored a goal. We won 5-0 and I received praise from my teammates and coach for my performance.

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I have been learning to share things with my parents now. Slowly. It is about pleasing them after all. Just text what's on my mind in the family group chat, y'know.

Today, I shared yesterday's experience with my mum. She replied "Kalau niat hati baik, InsyaaAllah boleh."

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Ramadhan in station is a great blessing. We Iftaar and solat Maghrib, Isya', Terawih & Subuh together as a rota. It is a humbling experience to have rotating imams for our prayers. May He guide this family constantly. Oh Turner of hearts, please keep our hearts firm on Your Religion.

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“Once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return.”

― Leonardo da Vinci