Nostalgic Sentimentality

This year's fasting month is really.. unique in a particular way.

I'm sure you'll (muslim friends) agree that it feels so.. accelerated. Thanks to the foresights
of examinations. =]

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First of all. I like to say SELAMAT HARI RAYA EIDULFITRI to all muslim friends of mine and blog readers. After 30 healthy days of fasting, i hope we can learn something from this
annual religious practice.

And I am pretty sure that some of us won't sleep tonight. Possibly due to the mixed emotions of happiness and solemness.

An hour ago, there, arrives the awaited confirmation that tomorrow is the hari raya, by the reciting of the hari raya azan .

*confirmation?*

Yeah. We will have to confirm that the "anak bulan" appears on the night of hari raya. If not, no hari raya! simple. HAHA. My parents shared their youth experiences when the hari raya was told to be one day later of the predicted date. Means they have to fast for one more day.
And some hari raya came earlier than expected. So yah, they were rushing like mad to cook and prepare their houses for the early, big day. x)

& I want to align both of my hands, kneel down before you, and humbly request for acceptance of my apology. I'm definite that I have surely done something wrong before to you. Please forgive my childish acts and mistakes. And forgive me if you were disgusted by my previous actions.


Hamba mohon maaf zahir dan batin.


Forgive and forget. Only one of that is easy i suppose. So take it that we mature forward after realizing our mistakes.

=)

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Moving away from hari raya,

Anyone of you appreciate older versions of things?
For example, umm.. Power rangers? (lame, i know. bear with me)
There are many different versions of Power Rangers, and most of them were made with better technology, yet many still prefer the earlier versions more than the current ones.

Why?

It's really unique to understand our nature of thinking preference. And the power ranger concept is just a specific example, so, think generally from now onwards. I think that this is just a cunning trick being played by our minds. Oh I love mind games xD. It is possible that our personality and preference are different from our current. You may love the Mighty Morphins when you were young, and still stick with it coz at that point of time, you were being filtered to think that possibilities of greater versions are basically impossible. (young minds, must understand xD)

Then, when the 'greater' versions arrive, you are mature enough to dislike it anymore, AND still stick with the earlier ones. I know it's confusing, but this is just my point of view. And I have been pondering on this thingy. So , if you guys are free to comment about this topic, please do so. =]

I leave it to you to think about further possibilities and examples about this issue.
Hint: I love eating tom yam soup.

p.s.:These self-mind games can harm you. Well, maybe not harm, but affect negatively. xD

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And once again, Selamat Hari Raya! =)

Preoccupied

3 more days.
5 more days.

We are sometimes too preoccupied to seek for beauty.
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Starry, starry night.
Paint your palette blue and grey,
Look out on a summer's day,
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills,
Sketch the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry, starry night.
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue.
Colors changing hue, morning field of amber grain,
Weathered faces lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they did not know how.
Perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.

Starry, starry night.
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the strangers that you've met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes,
The silver thorn of bloody rose,
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free.
They would not listen, they're not listening still.
Perhaps they never will...

Back.

Helloowwww.

Im back! (no more IT room PCs or wadsoeva.)

And oh no. I feel so intimidated by those who have already started mugging.

Make notes. Do exercises.

Hahaha.

I have always been an unwinder when it comes to exams. I'll start studying 2 days before the respective subject papers. It will sort of stick in my head when I focus and do things last minute.

So yah. And if this old technique of mine fails, then I'll just have to change it next year.

Experimentation at the appropriate time is good. Trust me.



Okay, maybe don't trust me.

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Highlight of the week:

HUMAN-&-ALIEN Birthday party on 23rd. Well, not party lah. More of dinner.

Broke fast there. (lol. broke, sounds weird)

munchMUNCHMUNCHmunchMUNCHmunchMUNCHmunchmunchMUNCHmunch
munchMUNCHmunchMUNCHmunchMUNCHmunchmunchMUNCHmunchmunch.

At 8pm, Me and Ziyad went for our prayers at the underground mosque near UOB
centre. Then came this little boy.





He was playing with us for like ard 10mins. Then he started to get violent.
So we ran away from him. XD



After prayers, met up with the rest. and they literally cam-whored.

(Take note: I used 'they') HAHA.

And someone is self-obsessed. xD Fierce.


Okay. That's all for now.

Going out to buy some clothes and baju kurung for RAYA! =D

And later at night, I'm walking around at Marina to hear the roar of the night race xD

WOosH!

Avoidance

I'm going crazeeee.

(oh my. Aidil just broke his mini-pc/organizer thingy due to stress.)

HAHA.

ok anyway, i currently using his PC (duh), in his room. We were trying our best to complete the 1st draft of spectrum magazine, BUT, to no avail.

Why.

Suffer. Pain. Endurance.

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AEP students. Media Club students.
I pity these innocent people. Well, not all, few.

I shud have kept my mouth shut all this while.

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You know,

Once there was a farmer, and then one cloudy day after making crop circles for E.T.,




































He Died! HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA xD

Stress.

Loss of Momentum

Oh no. I havent been blogging lately. Grr.
And couldn't possibly blog for next week too.

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You know, if you've read one of my posts a few months back,
I was finding out whether praises and applauses by peers can keep me going.
Or if the term "shining behind the shadows" suits me best.

And i've finally got it. =]

But I'm not gona post it here. Coz that is one of my private, personal behavior afterall.
Furthermore, I don't want to be a spoiler in showing how i behave and all right? xD

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Think about this.

An ordinary man loitering along the corner of a street. He took out his gun and shot a passerby dead. He stole her valuables and ran away. A few minutes later, he was caught by 2 policemen. What happens next? Nah, nothing special.


A single, well-known minister of a country, was seen with a girl by his side. A few days later, almost everyone knows about this. Different types of words came out from different individuals. The minister couldn't take the heat, and soon, he stepped down.

Whose action was more severe? Any amplification?

I wonder why.

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So, whoever who's out there with respective responsibilites, behave accordingly. =]

Ackkt.

Today, acting and video shooting was raised to a whole new level, for me at least.
It can be fun and funny if you are with the right people.

*backs away*

xD

The Present

Boom de ya dah.

What is happening to the world right now?
From natural processes to technological advancements.
From slow rock to CRAZY METAL. (inside joke) xD

And from sentimental to emo?

I wonder.

But worse, or maybe worse, from PETS to BALLOONS?
People used to walk their dogs. But now, what?! walk the balloons?

As seen & laughed by me, ziyad and shervin.
The balloons are like 10cm off the ground only.
Oh my. Can't help it. xD


Say hello to the modern world.
Soon we don't have to eat, we'll just have to use technology to make us full.
=]

Okay, that was just a joke laa. It was really weird and funny at that very moment.

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Speaking of weird. I see people starting to do weird things to fulfill their desires. [i'm sure it's not only me who sees this]. Maybe it's just a 'peer pressure' adaptation? Or maybe it's just bad influence regardless of the source. But a thing for sure, it's not that nice for people to see and it may portray a bad image for your side.

Weird: A strikingly odd or unusual character; strange.

Some may say, it's the "go-with-the-trend/flow" adaptation.
Well, for my part, I must say that it's never a must to follow the trend. And it ultimately depends on the nature of the trend itself.

If the trend is to speak loudly in buses, are you rude and careless enough to do that too?

I have seen people, no, friends, doing that. And it broke my heart a little. Little enough for me to change my thoughts towards them. With the exception of one or two. But note, it's just thoughts. Nothing else. Don't get me wrong.

People may think that my blog is really offensive in some way.

I don't mention names in this blog. And I find this fair. If they will ever taste the spice, well, I didn't say any names afterall, did I?

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And today was really a fruitful day. Have you ever re-string your guitar for 2 hours? Well, me, shervin and ziyad did.

But in a journey, it's regardless of the duration nor the destination you see.
And ppl say that time flies when you do eventful and fun stuffs. Yeah, We did that. =]

Abra-Kadabra. xD

A reflected image of us.There was a sliding door leading to the 5th floor carpark.

Words. Taken in. Exchanged.

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I'm surprised by the number of ppl.
(using bravenet here)
Thank you.

Reality - The truth

Sometimes we go with the textbooks.
But reality is often an issue for these info-loaded books.

But aren't these books suppose to show you what's real?
I sense that those people hugging their textbooks are those that are hiding the truth from
the people around him/her.

The truth is indeed what is real to us, and we certainly do not have to memorize its contents.
But sadly, some of us memorize them. For what purpose? I really don't know.

Textbooks are supposed to be a guide for you, not as a manual.
So beware of their propagandas.
This is what natural filters are for.

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I know political issues are very heavy these days.
Political, in terms of the teens case you know?

Those issues which spreads like verbal wildfire?
If you are ever caught in a situation like this, just ignore those matchsticks.
As they are just flaming themselves away.

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Realizing whether a human respects and treat you as their own friends - tough.
I really mean it. But fortunately, even though any human can be masking and filtering his or her actions, it is ultimately what he or she does in front of you, and behind your back.

For the exception of .. a handful of people who have my topmost respect; when they reveal the truth, it is the truth. The revelation of these truths comes in rarely too. And this is certainly not pouring kerosenes on the subject's back and burning him/her alive. It is more to understanding our personal behaviors too.

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In short,

All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; but the point is to discover them.

Fear grows in darkness; if you think there's a bogeyman around, turn on the light.
If he doesn't want to siam, sing the best song in the world. xD or just simply pour water on him la, so that he can wake up.

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ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY xD
(another me hops in with one leg as tho he was playing hopscotch)

I'm alone now. Mom's in hosp.
Nothing much la. She's getting a free wash. =l

Vice City

Heads up.

On another note,

Have you ever seen/ heard a doctor saying:

"No money, No wash."

to a helpless, innocent, woman in a hospital, who's strapped on the dialysis chair before?
What happened to her? Oh, she past away two days later.




Parents told me not too worry.
But worries and fears are factors that make us strong and successful.

Fear of losing someone. Fear of failing an exam. Fear of falling out of love.
Fear of fear. Fear of vegetables. Fear of bees. =]

Worrying abt an opponent's next move. Worrying abt your health.
Worrying abt your friends thoughts. Worrying abt worrying too much too.

In the hopes of reaching to the moon,
people sometimes fail to see the nature that blossom at their feet.





- And I will do that.

Missing waves of the ocean

Everybody feels alright you know,
But I've heard some poor fool say "Somebody!"
Everyone is out there on the loose,
oblivious to the other worlds.

Well i wished i lived in the land of fools
And no one knew my name
But what you get is not quite what you choose.

Ya know?

Oh my! I really love the first week of this final term altho it sucked for me.
Can't wait for the eoys to arrive.

*suspense* *boom*

Anw, just now in the bus otw to eunos, there was this lorry which dropped and spilled a handful of BIG, BIG sacks of STARCH POWDER on the road. Then my bus need to stop and wait for the lorry driver to carry away the sacks. Thrills of suspension. xD




Oh yah. Guys, the internet tells more than 1001 tales about you.
So yah, beware. TAPS members are here to dig out your secrets! =x

(the TAPS part is an inside joke btw)




And there were smart little cats which will physco you to reveal whateva you know.
So beware! =)
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You know where you are?!!
You're in a JUNGLE BABEEEHHH!! =o

The November Rain has arrived

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same

Nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain

But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

If we could take the time
to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my
own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...
on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
Nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

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Well, for me, the November has certainly arrived after hearing the impending news today.
And if anything happens to my mom, i promise you, you'll regret it.

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Like the lyrics? Listen to my 2nd track blog song. =]

Oh my, after ending this post, i hear a thunderclap. Then it started raining.
Aww, how nice.

Different view points

I want to be where the sun warms the ground
Riggghtt.

Every single human is different from one another, except for a few of course.
There are the differences, and the similarities too.
An example of such similarities will be: Morals.
Every single one of us has that, or so we thought.

Some may think that doing certain things are not wrong at all, while some think they are.
It all boils down to the passive & uncaring thoughts of humans or the hope of a better tomorrow.

Some may say that nothing's perfect. Well I agree.
And the others will "back it up" with a simple thing like:
"Practice makes perfect. But nothing's perfect, so why practice?"
Oh my.. what immense creativity.
So creative that they are oblivious to tiny little things which may be taken,
for the better good.

Negativity, false influences and fake entertainment.
When you start convincing yourself to do something due to influence,
and you juuuussst know that it's wrong, BUT you stiiiiiiil continue to do it.
Well gratz, coz you've made the wrong turn to the highway of
"1001 things to get you entertained altho' it is such a bore."
&
"Oh no I'm in trouble, wait, I'm not alone. I'll do that sumore."

Sounds familiar? I bet it is.

I am convinced all of humanity is born with more gifts than we know. Most are born geniuses and just get de-geniused rapidly. And it is even more sad, for us, when we think we are getting smarter all the time and everyone else is dumb. Right? When things are too familiar to us, they become our habits. From then on, it's difficult to change our way of thinking. If you're on the safe track, good for you. If you're not, get busy.

You are today where your thoughts have brought you; you will be tomorrow where your thoughts take you. So think today.

Tell me that you hate these people.
Coz the more you say these things,
the more noticeable your rude acts unnoticeably becomes.
And the more we'll hate you for your fake fronts.

Oh.
I'm an appointment holder.
I'm a leader.
I've taken courses, ya' know.
Let's keep that flag unfurled.
Oh.
Right, with your fake fronts.
You won't notice it at all. Thanks to your wonderful mates, or so we thought.

Oh.
I'm just an average man.
I'm not a leader.
Why should I care?
I'll just do whats best for me.
Oh.
Glory built on selfish principles, is just shame and guilt.
Unless the guy is some chimps of course.

Oh yes, anger and frustration. I know.
I simply can't hold this inside my mind anymore, coz it's gonna blow up anytime soon at ppl. And doing that is simply not my type.


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My life is getting more pressurized lately. [duh, who's not]
Not with school. Wait, that's a lie. Ok fine, school too.

If you still don't know, my mom has to go to dialysis 3 times per week.
My dad got into an accident 3 months back. He couldn't work for quite a while.
And dialysis needs payment ya know? 2-3 months of piled up bills.
Saving a life takes the highest priority here. But without the other un-free necessities,
a living life will go through an un-lively & difficult life. So why should I worry?
Coz the dialysis treatment is gona be cut soon, if it's not paid in 2 days time.
Full payment. Oh, what kind souls there is beneath the sea of "helping the society".

But, nothing is as bad as you think. I know that there are other people who is troubled by other, bigger things in their lives. Some penniless, some homeless, some limbless. I don't want to be named as a spoiled brat. And I still got those things with me now, so why should I cry.
Why should I. Then, why should you too.

And if my behavior and character don't seem to match my situation right now.
Oh, I'm sorry. =1 And I realized I've been talkative lately. Sorry too.

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2 days of school holidays left. Oh what a time to be in the holiday mood.
This holiday, I realized that a man can't be judged or respected by only his words.
His actions are as important, if not more important.
Okay, gtg. Thnx for reading. =]


Anyway the wind blows.
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me.

The Well-Known Holidays

Spent my WHOLE DAY today at an animation workshop hosted by NJC.
Ok lah. Met new ppl [duh]. And I realized me and Aidil were the only malay boys in the entire 150 ppl.

TSK.

And omg? I suddenly became to bohemian rhapsody.
Not forgetting whose line is it anyway: Scenes from a hat. Try searching it on Youtube.
Guaranteed + chop -> laughter.

And SPECTRUM! Fishcake la. Can't even revise.