Biding time

Got this quiz from hafidz's blog.
6 ppl he didn't tag fr the quiz:
1)crap
2)banana
3)apple pie
4)handphone
5)PHYSICS.
6)966!

So yah, I think I'm eligible fr this quiz. =j

Gah.

Q : who do you prefer? girlfriend or brothers? why?
A : None. Coz I don't have any.

Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A : 1)Unlimited wishes for me and the good ppl that I know
2)Have my own time machine to correct my mistakes and travel to the future to find what's up and come back =)
3)Fly like a bird, who always fly away xD

Q : What would your first reaction be, when you see someone you love/like, being happy with some other guy/girl?
A : Breathe in. Or, maybe breathe out. Depends.

Q : What will you be in 8 years time?
A : Finding the correct job for me?

Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A : See first. Heheh.

Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A : Tell me How long, how long, woman will you weep? How long, how long, rock yourself to sleep xD

Q : If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A : You'll get the chic by hatching the egg, not by smashing it - Patience.

Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A : Hypocrites. Used me for their own sakes. Then they splashed invincible paint on me.

Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like/love?
A : I'm not sure. But I noe for sure tt my mouth will not open and speak.

Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A : My head is only big enough for my brain.
But umm, - nope.

Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A : My parents, aunts, uncles, cousins n my grandfather.

Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A : Yes, coz Im short. -.- The topic of inner beauty can be debated both ways. So.. ya.

Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A : Nothing's perfect. Bear that in mind.

Q : Are you happy with your life?
A : I'm not sure. But I'm only 15.

Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A : Nope. x) A selfish partner in a relationship is nvr a partner in life.

Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick? the lousiest one? OR the better one?
A : The one.

Q : What type of friends do you like?
A : Human friends. And maybe cat and hamster friends.

Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A : Nope. Sometimes, it is good to live in guilt. So u will not do it again.

Q : What type of girl do you look for?
A : A girl that can cook Tom Yam Soup for me every night and day.

6 ppl that I will tag

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6)

Just use ur imagination.

Honesty, from the bottom of my heart.

I was thinking abt this. If I shuld be straightforward with this.
Mayb i shuld. So that ppl wont misunderstand me.

First things first. Damien, this is for you.
U know, after seeing ur very own private journal, i was stunned for awhile.
Then I realised, if you tell the truth and basically cry your hearts out,
ppl can and will understand u. Just an advice here, you're 15, as u've
said sumtime ago, 15's one of the best moment of our lives. And don't let
something or someone just crush and crumble your world just like that. I,
myself, have experience this first hand, just like u. So nvr think that
you're an unfortunate boy.

And I'm glad you're matured enough to move on.
Life's a buffet, there are tons of other nice foods around.
If you feel full, just take a sip of water, be patient,
and continue when you're ready again.

Listen, we (me and other ppl) always agree
that u have the potential for excellence. Just input actions in it, and
u're ready to go.

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Next, it's abt me. I don't know how to put this, but who cares.
I know how you guys feel abt me. I'm just an irritatingshortfuckingasshole
hu doesn't mind his own business. And if I'm ever lyk dat, I wana apologise.

Ystdy, quarreled with my parents. I don't know why they're like that.
I really don't know why. Mayb bcoz of stress? Both of them are not working.
They're a 'member' of SGH. And they're thinking abt me.
Education = future. That's what I can say right now.

And I prayed hard last night, more of morning, so that my family can
live happily again like when I was 1-7. And it's rare to get me cry.
And ystdy i did again, during my solat hajat. And directly after that,
something, this special thing, altho i don't know what isit, made me kneel
down and apologize to both of them.

If you wana know azmi, i rarely ask for an apology towards my parents. I admit
that I'm a sinful son. But now, after my 15th bday, I've promised not to do these
stupid things again. And I know someone, no, someppl out there, are disgusted by
my childish actions or behaviour, again and again, I'm sry. Altho u guys didn't tell
me anything abt this, I know that u're signaling to me. So, I'm sry. Sry.

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Now, I wana talk abt something which scars me, a bit. Since what I've done for you,
the turning point, u slowly left me. Left me alone. Pondering, wondering what the
FUCK is going on. And now, after you had a good company, u totally forgot abt me.
And the worst part is, U still didn't tell me whats going on.

Earlier, i sensed that you are slowly cheating and lying to me in some way. I knew.
I know. As a close friend, I did what you wanted me to. And now, you just..
Just.. Harh.

Betrayal? Ask yrself that question. You didn't even open yr mouth to tell me.
Since you have your own company now, I guess the only way is for me to forget
the painful past. You cheated me. Yes. Cheated. And YOU guys, didn't even care
abt my own feelings. Selfishness. What have I done wrong to you guys?

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Pandanglah hamba si gagak hutan
Sebelah mata pun hamba tak terkilan
Adumu bercadarkan pintalan gemawan
Tidur hamba beralas reranting hutan

Tak hamba terkelindan sayap dipatahkan
Tak hamba terkilan telur hamba dipecahkan
Hamba akur dengan kehendak Tuhan
Hamba akur berketurunan bermandi hinaan

Pintamu keterlaluan
Kau inginkan hamba kalungkan bulan
Kau kepinginkan kerabu dari bintang berkerdipan
Kau dambakan rantai untaian buih lautan

Penat hamba menanam ubi
Ramai berladang nenas di seberang
Penat hamba menabur budi
Emas jua dipandang orang

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I'm sorry.

Ignorance

Ignorance is bliss. Not always.
Ignorance may hurt you. Like what it did to me.
You treat them the way they want to be treated.
But will they do the same to you?

Love all, but only trust a few.

Especially to those who enjoys being in a larege clique. Don't always
trust your mates, cos they won't care abt you when they have other friends.
And don't even make me start abt "outsiders". I've had enough and I'm just letting out
my thoughts. Sry if I offended anyone. Take it as a non-poisonous sting.

For eg. wayy sumtime back, i consoled sum down-ed friend of mine. And a few other
ppl comforted him too. And in the end he thanked every1 xept for me. Unintentionally?
I dont think so. More of lazy opening ur mouth coz ur not close to strangers lyk me.
Or mayb its just me. =C

And don't worry, cos i always 4give ppl before i sleep.
And just pray that they will 4give u too.

Happy birthday to me =). And I promise you, I will turn
over a new leaf. - As I regret my childish actions way back then.

Heheh. Pics!

<madcowboy>
Hey! Lookie over there! It's the b'day boy! Yeeeehhaaaaww!
< /madcowboy>

Hey Hey hey. Look who's 15 years old on Earth on the 15th June 2008
who is in front of his computer, scanning old nostalgic pics of him during his
young days. (yes, I'm gona upload them in this post, so just stay wif me pls.. :)

Haha. Anyway, straight to the point. It's 15th June - My birthday. And I'm proud
of that. 15 years of humanly experience. Ahhhhhh... And I can't wait to have more
of that.

Erm, nothing much actually. Just that I'm older. And.. on every b'day, I will set
new goals for myself, reflect about my progress for the past few years, and..
of cos, new wishes.

ook.

Wishes (according to importance)

1. Good results
2. Healthy family members
3. Happy and peaceful life
4. Live in a countryside (oh, you wish)
   
5. Watch endless episodes of WHO'S LINE IS IT ANYWAY
6. PS3 (Metal Gear Solid 4 owns)
7. New PC
8. House makeover :)
9. Cats! I want Cats! Or.. hamsters
10. Acceptance
11. Less homework

Hehh. And pls, don buy me presents or gifts. It's a neutral thing.
Like umm, when u give them to me, I feel nothing. I don feel happy or
wadsoeva. So don't waste your time and money ok? (Oddly weird)

Ok. I sort of miss my past. Being with the ones who were still there with me back then.
And they will be in my prayers, always. And I miss my village at Masai, M'sia!
Apparently sum drunken piece of shit Masai gang members broke into the house and
stole sum cheapo stuff. (erm this thing happened a few months ago)

Stolen items:

1. A small TV
2. My TAMIYA race track set (wad the f?)
3. Clothes
4. The fridge
5. Sum comics (No lifers)

LOL. And yeah, I'm gona post my village pics too.


A year older, means I get to share sumting more with all of you. Right?
(Gnarly theory dude.)
Erm, ok. Errrr. I got it! How abt a pic of my room? Ok? ok.
Here it is.

Pic1_



Sparkly PC. Blue PC chair. A cupboard to store my books (left)
U can see my guitar on my mattress. And u can also see a lil
bit of my study table.

Pic2_



Err, nothing much. At the left side of my table is a "back-less"
PC chair. I place my sejadah and kain on it. Err, and yeah, a clearer view of
my neat "bed".

Pic3_



And now you can see my purple drawers/cupboard, where I store
my old stuffs inside. Books, toys, toys, toys, games. And on top of it is my
small SONY TV, and my lovely PS2.


Hhahahahah.

You've seen nothing yet.

...

Holey crap. My PC's having her mood swings. Lag here and there.
Purposely u noe. Notti PC. Looks like I have to rest her a while and
come back later in the morn to upload my pics. :-S

In the meantime, I think I just have to play my ps2 till subuh.
Cya. Brb.

..

BACK! With the PICS! haha.

Ok, here it is. Make sure u click on them to view and read the side comments
on it. :)

You realised sumthg? There's no pic of me abv 7 years old. ANd I'm serious abt this.
Coz I'm not a camwhorer! *coughsomeprefectscough* haha.

Okok. Time for me to go now. And have sum snacks or food. Bb. THnx for reading ;)

- Revampers -

Hi again. Phew. Today was packed with fun and excitement.
And tiring too.

I reached school around 10.15am. I was damn kinda "scared" in sum
way cos I'm late for 15mins for the meeting. Then when I opened the door,
only Ziyad was inside the room =.= Kinda disappointed lah at first.

So we called ppl up, and managed to get them. And we took a daaaang lot of time
trying to persuade this *errrrggghm* to come. =.= Right Ziyad? xD
Hahaha. Jk la.

At ard 11-ish, only quinn and ziyad were there. Then Hafidz came =).
Clean clean clean. Throw throw throw. xD

Then Ziyad and quinn gotta leave. Dzafir came. Continued.

Ziyad came back, and Damien arrived. Andd thheeeeennn.
HAaaaafiz came. Grrr..... xD

Anw, we cleared those useless stuffs and furniture that were lyk, really,
USELESS. We hammer down stuffs, tear, kick, etc (cos we're really crazy)
Cleaned up the place. There's this video that Ziyad took, showing us hammering
down this black table. And we took turns to hit it. Finally, Haafiz, the last guy
who's gona finish the job, hit it.

AND GUESS WAD. The moment he hits it, the hammer's "head" drop out and
ignited sum spark when it touches the ground and bounced away. If u wana c the
vid, search for Ziyad! Maybe he's uploading it to his blog too.

Prayed. Had lunch. Went to Ikea at Tamp, to look ard for new furniture and stuffs.
It is gnaaarllly fun dude! You noe, when u enter Ikea, there's always this trademark smell.

Damien: "Ahhh.. The smell of dead trees..."

Hahahaahahahha.

Planned and had fun around the place. Then we spotted this
"I live in 22sq.m house" corner. Where they display ideas for small
homes / rooms.

And it's freaking awesome. So cosy. The living room is the kitchen and
the bedroom. Cool. So we had this motivation to study hard and
go to the same Uni and live together. Nice right? :)

Theeeeeeeennnnn. Erm. Oh yah. Went to TM at food culture to eat.
Theeeeennnnnnn, went to Ziyad's house to pray.

Theeeeeeeennn.. Err. What ar? Oh yah, took 21 and went home.
Yay! End of story.

Valuable piece

Just returned from watching Kungfu Panda wif Aidil.

Thnx Aidil. He's the only one hu's willing to go wif me coz
every1 is soooooo "busy" nowadays.

Aniwae... KungFu Panda was awesome. Brilliant.

The hilarious actions, sarcasm, words... actions... are so
gnarrrrrlllllyyyyy dude! (Inside joke)

Ok, on a serious note here.
This is the best and most "worth the price" movie, to me.
Because there is a great deal of hidden lessons to be learned and
taken back from this movie.


1) Believe in yourself

Yeahh.. Who doesn't know that.. But are you guys doing it?
Ask yourself that question. Sometimes, humans must be
reminded, or they will be oblivious to their surroundings and
to what they're actually doing.

Believe in yourself. Lets say.. you are sitting for the 'o' lvls.
If you don't believe in yourself that you can do well in that
exam, then why are you sitting in the examination hall?
Then, what's the use of those teachers who spent countless hours
marking, scrutinizing and taking care of every single actions that u
do?

In other words, believing that you can do "something" is the first and
optimal step that you must do before you can start doing it.


2) You can change the way you are

For those peeps who keep telling themselves "oh it's just fate that I'm stupid",
"Nah, I'm not fit to do this", "I suck in this", I tell you what.

You, yourself, are the hardest enemy that you have to face, ever, in your life.

Because YOU are controlling your life. Not other people. They can't control
your breath, they can't control when you wanna pee, they can't control when you
wanna shout or scream. It's you. You are controlling your own life.
You are responsible for everything you do

Hence, if you want to change into a better person, or for example, you wana
do well in your studies, it's YOU. You are the one who opens the textbook and
learn, prepare yourself for exams, not other people. Don't blame other people for
whatever you have done. Because you yourself did it, or didn't want to do it.

It's just the matter of you wanting to do it, or not.


3) The secret ingredient to everything is nothing

The secret ingredient is indeed nothing. There's no shortcuts in life.
There is no way that you can learn the guitar solo of Hotel California
if you are a rookie and you have not touched a guitar before.

It takes all loads of life skills to complete what you want to do.
For instance, There are no secrets in playing a guitar.
(What? There are secret spells that can make you play Hotel California
while you're in a hypnotized mode or sumting?)

I guess you just have to adapt with the surrounding and change the
way you are doing something if what you are doing always fail. There
are no cheat codes in life (Can you find cheat codes of life on the net?)

In conclusion, if you want to do something, first believe that you can do it,
and then, take it seriously with all your heart and soul in it.

There are always routes that you have to go through before you can
reach your destination. It's just the matter of which route you choose to get there.


Hope you have learn something from this and may you adopt these valuable skills.

Just like the Old Times

My mum's away again. Or soon to be.

I don't know. Just waiting for the news.

She's possibly going to b warded in SGH.
Her legs are just... wrong.

If I were to show you guys how "straight" her leg is,
you guys will freak out. I'm very sure.

And so.. I will be motivated and inspired to learn again.
Semester 2 goal : 6points.

I did it during my Sec 1 days, I'm sure I can do it again.

And great. I will not be at my home for like 3 months?

p/s: I will not entertain nonsense from idiots. [if there is]
If that's what I wana do, then that's my problem.
Selfish? Nope. I'm not disturbing / affecting any1.

Yeah. Motto no. 13?

God.

Oh I have no Idea.

I Hate holidays! [Who doesnt?] {Primary school kids]

Partly due to homework and assignments.

BUT, the worse thing is stoning there at not knowing wtf to do.

Suggestions pls! Coz i think I wan this holiday to be a productive 1.